sick, sick, sick

I hate being sick and I know that many of you have requested that I post a non-negative post every once in a while but this will not be it. I cannot shoot sunshine and flowers out of my ass for you at this very moment. Why does eveyone think that I HAVE to be positive, maybe, just maybe in this world there exist a few of us non-positive, surly, combative people who just are like that and can't be outwardly happy all the freaking time. No offense, yo, but I'm getting kind of tired of people telling me to "just be happy" don't you think that if I could I would? Do you think I enjoy being like this? No. That is your answer, no, I do not enjoy being like this and I would greatly appreciate it if all the sally sunshines in the world would jump directly off my back and leave me alone with it. I bitch on here because it is a way for me to vent in a healthy manner. Would you rather I run people down with my car at the sority dorm? Or in the parking lot at the grocery store? No, I didn't think you would. I love the people who have told me this time and again, but I. Am. Not. Sally. Sunshine. and I never will be, so stop trying to force it.